After all

No. This isnt a post about self pity. This isnt a post about regretting. This is a post about the girl that changed my life.
Reading back the posts that have been made, its been so long since i've blogged. Much has changed,
Much has happened.. Nothing gained, all lost. Been to the bottom and the only way is up.
Yes thats what everyone always says, but when you're rock bottom do you know how to get up?
In summary since 25th October 2012. It has been hell, haywire a crazy roller coaster ride.The kind of pain not words but only crying can convey

BMT, away from home stripped of freedom. Lost without the one i love. Living everyday for the sake of getting by.. Every meal salted with tears from a time i'd never have to dine alone. Every night hopeless and cold, clutching my phone waiting for that call, a message that could ignite hope back into my life. And every now and then, even though how afraid of rejection, i'd still press that green phone button.. no one answers.
Breaking down... hurting so badly... The pain of not having you by me anymore. The worse feeling of all. Lost.

Fighting for you.. Always have been. Heartbroken when you said it was too late. I never left, neither did you. But why are we apart now? Why did we allow the world to push us further and further away from each other. I never ever will know... Never know what my heart is telling me to do, i just follow. All the way. I believe its worth it. You're worth it..infact more than i'll ever know.
Never have i ever cared if anyone know what i've did for you, even if the world is against me, your heart will know how true i've been.

2009.. At that very church, with a lited candle. I prayed to be with this girl. That i'll love her with all my heart.

 March 2012, my prayers were answered. Back in Vietnam with you in my arms.
 

3 mths down the road.. 4th Jan 2013. POP. Going to Bangkok alone. A trip that awoke my senses, gained independence. Loving myself more. Felt really different. Being alone in a foreign land. I remember the times we used to laugh like retards. hahaha! we had loads of fun ehh? Thought about how everything went downhill, when we'd lose patience in each other. Maybe its because we cared about each other soo much till the only we could express ourselves was by getting all angst and saying mean stuff.

28th January 2013. We started talking again.. thanks for being there for my 21st. That candle lit and the awkward birthday song. I made the same wish i made 4 years ago at that faithful church.. come what may... my faith will holdfast. and i believe :
 "I vow to love you, and no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other."

Signing off ... Leo..